I came early this morning, I dunno what’s up with me? Still there were several birds spinning on my head, I turned on the computer and checked several paper on my desk, It has been raining hard this morning until now. All of my friends came late, I arrived at the office at 7.30 Am. I met my friend on train this morning his name’s Erry he is really cute, in my neighborhood he is the cutest of all, my best friend like him a lot he is a type of pious man that’s why my best friend admiring him a lot besides he has a good looking face, i had a very short conversation with him then I had to stop in Kluang railway station .
Oya..yesterday I create an account on Multiply, coz I read the Fira Basuki‘s account. she is a writer, even though I never read her book, I think I am gonna buy her book this weekend, I just want to compare her book and her blog.
Hmm..what else sometimes I have a fool wishful though, that I can read somebody mind, coz I’ve just read something that I never think before. I wish me capable on doing that, but I choose not. Let it flow by it self. My mind is getting to exploded with all the new things, maybe I should exploding myself like a suicide bomber and destroying myself (better not think of it)
Last night I slept 1 AM, and I couldn’t sleep well. I don’t know why? All I know, thinking is a way or releasing my stress and anger.
“I wanna be good,
I wanna deserve heaven, but what if I cant be good?
So better die soon,
So I don’t dirty my soul more
Yeah, Lord can you hear me,
Didn’t you say ask anything you want and I give you.
I want death, I hate this life, it’s useless,
It’s meaningless, I don’t want money,
I don’t want have my own job, family, home…
I just wanna be good.”
Can I help him?
To get him moving steady...alone, or whoever he wants me to be with.
In this warm cozy earth (not sleet, not blizzard, no tornado, or disaster) You created.
Can I hug him with my invisible huge 'hands' that Almighty.
I want to be one entity, me and my soul.