The thing is there is just so much emotion pent up in me
you name it.
The thing is,
I do not know how to express them anymore.
I can't cry anymore
I do not now how
It's like the clown make up is permeanant.
I just can't look sad.
Maybe its just that I do not want people to feel my pain.
My pain is for me
And me only
I do not want people to feel my pain
I hated seeing people cry
Might as well not cry myself.
I want them to be happy.
In order for that to happen,
I need not let them know the pain inside.
I just have to hide it
and wait for it to slowly fade away.
Its kinda emo actually
In fact, I think of just putting a smile on my face.
A permeanant one
They say it feels better to just let it all out.
But I feel
Seeing people not being hurt is good enough
seeing people happy
is good enough.
I can't cry anymore.
i'm always smiling